nFLYc.com
TheNFLYC.com
https://www.youtube.com/@SayOhSongs
8/6/26 NEW - LEBO M – BUSA TRAP REMIX (124 BPM)
(MORE ON) Soundcloud.com/nflyc
The Reason String Theory Exists? (Quantum Physic’s
String Theory)
https://nflyc.blogspot.com/2023/02/string-theory-breaking-down-of-errant.html
https://nflyc.blogspot.com/2023/02/is-string-theorys-purpose-way-to.html
https://nflyc.blogspot.com/2025/10/the-breaking-down-of-quantum-matter-as.html
https://nflyc.blogspot.com/2025/10/the-breaking-down-of-quantum-matter-as_29.html
(10/17/25 - if you don’t know,
technically, the purpose? (origin of the vibration) of string theory is man’s
biggest mystery
We have technology that allows us
to study atomic matter (particle accelerators)
But the quantum reality has yet to
be observable (like a super collider splits atoms)
The second blog post proposes, the separation of positive positron energy from
negative electron energy at a quantum level.
We already know atoms can be split
(to form new elements); it only makes sense it can be happening at a quantum
level
and that's my hypothesis for string
theory vibration = the continually splitting of positrons from electrons, at a
unobservable (like microscopic) level
technically, I could get a nobel prize for this (atleast, I
think? As far as I know, the explanation for the vibrational strings was
unknown)
10/28/25 - The third blog post is
an attempt to depict quantum destruction in terms of Lego blocks versus gases.
It’s an easy way to explain the
concept. Where atomic break down of matter are lego
blocks,
But quantum break down of matter is
more vapid like a gas / or an energy cloud
10/29/25 - The fourth blog post
considers the shape of a worm whole (it’s contours) form similar to a bubble in
water.
Quantum reality being the gas
Atomic reality being the water (our
universe outside the wormhole)
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(…yeah, this is the guy you met.)
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You just have to remember, all
matter goes in to a black hole
Where the gravitational force is so
strong, it splits atoms
But what happens in the quantum
worm hole on the other side?
…Might just be continual
destruction of matter (at a quantum level
(separation of positrons from electrons …at a quantum level (instead of
atomic))
And since nothing survives a black
hole nor being in a wormhole = it’s still a form of destruction (that’s sub
atomic)
(so what, i’m
smart. you want to make something about it?)
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1/11/26
HEY, I JUST REALIZED, I’M A
“SUPERSTAR PHOTOGRAPHER”
(…THINKING ABOUT THE TERM ““SUPER” MODEL”)
I JUST REALIZED, I’M ACTUALLY WHAT
THEY CALL
A “SUPERSTAR PHOTOGRAPHER”
3/21/26
I TAKE PICTURES OF SUPERMODELS...
HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?
I JUST TOOK MY CAMERA OUTSIDE
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RESORTS / LOUNGES, IF YOU WANT ME
TO DO PHOTOSHOOTS AT YOUR POOL SIDE. I WOULD LOVE TO.
…WE CAN MAKE A DAY-SPA OF IT…
(OR OBVIOUSLY, A NIGHT LIFE EVENT
OF IT. BUT YOU KNOW… POOLSIDE? …ON A SUNNY DAY?)
(Oscar Peterson – Wave)
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8/4/26
8/5/26 (CORRECTION: I ORIGINALLY WROTE THE FOLLOWING, THINKING CINDY CRAWFORD
OWNED MISTER PURPLE (HER HUBAND RANDE GERBER. ACTUALLY, IT’S RANDE’S BROTHER
SCOTT GERBER WHO OWNS MISTER PURPLE (I THINK I’M RIGHT)) 8/5/26
MY
REAL
LIFE
HEY, MISTER PURPLE! IF YOU WANT TO
USE THE N FLY C PHOTOS FOR COMMERCIAL, FEEL FREE. THE PRINT ROLL LINK IS LISTED
ON INSTAGRAM-
CINDY CRAWFORD IS A SILENT PARTNER
(IN A SENSE) OF MINE. NOT REALLY A REAL BUSINESS RELATIONSHIP;
JUST
ACCEPTABLE PERMISSIONS, BECAUSE THAT'S MY POLICY. THE PHOTOS ARE FREE.
YOU
KNOW... LIKE EVERYONE ELSE
(JUST
LIKE THE HUFF POST)
STUFF I CAN DO
IF CINDY CRAWFORD WANTED ME TO DO
SOME SORT OF CRAZY SUPER MODEL SHOOT HIGH FASHION MULTI-BRAND EVENT AT HER
NIGHT CLUB,
ME: MISTER PURPLE. YEAH, TOMORROW.
DONE
FOR AN EVEN EASIER ANSWER
HOW ABOUT A LOOK PARTY?
DONE!
A SUPER MODEL
SUPER DESIGNERS
LOOK (SILENT COMPETITION)
PARTY
AND WE'LL EVEN INCLUDE A WALK OFF
(LIKE ON ZOOLANDER)
8/4/26 - HEY MISTER PURPLE, I WAS
THINKING OF HAVING A PARTY? A LOOK PARTY? SOUND LIKE FUN?
MISTER PURPLE PARODIED): HEY TOM.
YEAH... THAT SOUNDS FUN...
THEY'RE WILL BE A LOT OF SUPER
MODELS THERE.
IF YOU GUYS CAN COME?
…THAT WOULD BE AWESOME!
MISTER PURPLE: THAT SOUNDS LIKE FUN
8/5/26 - WE INVITE THE PRESS BECAUSE IT'S TOTALLY “ORGANIC”. THE MODELS’ ARE ALLOWED
/ FREE TO DO WHATEVER THEY WANT
(MODEL WEARING THEIR OWN PREFERRED LOOK (FROM ALL THEIR YEARS OF RECEVING
CLOTHING),
SHOWING OFF THEIR OWN WALK - IN A WALK OFF.
(THIS COULD POP-UP ANYWHERE)
(FARM TO TABLE WI-FI)) - 8/5/26
THE N FLY C TOM: I'LL LET SOME
PRESS KNOW.
MISTER PURPLE: I KNOW SOME PEOPLE
TOO.. THAT COULD BE FUN…
THE N FLY C TOM: WELL, YOU NEVER
KNOW. (IT COULD HAPPEN… IT MIGHT BE PRETTY COOL. DON'T GET YOUR HOPES UP
...CINDY CRAWFORD AND OF COURSE, YOUR DAUGHTER KAIA GERBER)
(NOTE TO SELF - CINDY CRAWFORD'S
DAUGHTER'S NAME IS LIKE THE BABY FOOD, I ALWAYS FORGET...)
ANY WAY
OK BYE
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8/4/26 – HEY, MAYBE JAY-Z WILL SEND
HIS FRIENDS OUT?
OOH
MAYBE
HE'LL COME OUT
WITH BEYONCE
THEY JUST DID A RECORD BREAKING
SELL OUT CONCERT AT YANKEE'S STADIUM
WE MIGHT GET TOO BIG A CROWD?
MISTER PURPLE: SOUNDS LIKE A LOT OF
PEOPLE (AN OVER PACKED HOUSE)
(MISTER PURPLE THINKING TO HIMSELF,
GEEZE, I DON'T KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE WHO CAN FILL OUT MY NIGHTCLUB
WITH SO MANY FRIENDS OF
CELEBERITIES
THE N FLY C TOM IS SWELL…
(The pictures were so good last
time…)
…YOU CAN JUST DO IT! INVITE ME IF
YOU WANT.
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Kid Cudi - Pursuit Of Happiness
(Steve Aoki Remix Feat. MGMT & Ratatat)
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8/6/26 - MADLIBS
8/5/26
JUST SOME THOUGHTS
CRAWFORD GERBER
WOULD BE AN UNDENIABLE NAME
8/6/26 - MADLIBS
GERBER GROUP’S GLOBAL FASHION
FRIENDLY NIGHTCLUBS?
SOUNDS LIKE WHAT FASHION NEEDS...
MANIFEST DESTINY?
FASHION FAMILY GERBER CRAWFORD
MAKING THE FRIENDLIEST FASHION
NIGHT CLUBS...
FOR THE MOST
BEAUTIFULLEST…
(FASHION SUPERSTAR...
SUPERMODELS,
DESIGNERS
AND CAREER PROFESSIONALS
...IN
...THE
...WORLD?
(YOU KNOW. PEOPLE. FASHION'S BEAUTIFULLEST PEOPLE? ...IN THE WORLD
(WORLD WIDE FRANCHISE? WITH THE POSSIBILITIES OF THE CRAWFORD GERBER (EVEN JUST
"CRAWFORD" + "GERBER") NAME?
AT CINDY CRAWFORD GERBER'S
HUSBAND'S & SUPER MODEL KAIA GERBER'S FATHER'S
– (RANDE AND SCOTT) GERBER GROUP’S WORLD WIDE FRANCHISE SUPER MODEL FRIENDLY
NIGHTCLUBS
(I MEAN, THEY WOULD HAVE TO BE, IT’S IN THEIR FAMILY = REQUIRED)
SOUNDS LIKE...
JUST...
DESTINY...
(i took
cool pictures there. just last year)
(“Deborah Harry and Giorgio Moroder
– Call me”)
…How’s that for a business …model?
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FASHION “INFLUENCER”?
…nah
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ONE KNOWS I'M A CELEBRITY (BECAUSE IT'S NOT EVEN ME THAT KNOWS I'M A CELEBRITY)
(AND I JUST DON'T CARE!)
I'M A THIRD DIMENSIONAL MAGICIAN
WITH LIGHT
AND THAT'S
JUST
THE
BEGINNING
(WORLD TOUR AS A RAP STAR COULD
(TECHNICALLY) HAPPEN NOW)
YOU KNOW, I ONCE GOT A CALL BACK
AUDITION WITH PAUL MOONEY (SHOUT OUT TO GOTHAM CASTING)
MAYBE IT'S JUST ME, NO ONE KNOWS
I'M A CELEBRITY (BECAUSE IT'S NOT EVEN ME THAT KNOWS I'M A CELEBRITY) (AND I
JUST DON'T CARE!)
(AND) I TREAT EVERY BODY
LIKE THEIR NORMAL
BECAUSE I’M JUST NORMAL
(BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW
I'M FAMOUS AT ALL)
AND I STILL DON'T CARE!
9/22/25 - HEY YOU WANT TO KNOW A
SECRET FAMOUS PEOPLE (I KNOW). WE'RE JUST NORMAL (THE SAAVY BUSINESS
PROFESSIONALS) ...AND THAT'S ALL (YOU KNOW LIKE MY DAYS AT FORD)
9/22/25 - THEY HAVE PROBABLY
ALREADY SAID (AFTER LOOKING AT MY INSTAGRAM), HEY, ISN’T THAT GUY WE JUST MET
FAMOUS? I DIDN’T KNOW AT ALL. I DON’T EVEN THINK HE KNOWS.
HE DEFINITELY DOESN’T SEEM TO CARE.
PROOF: ME ALONG SIDE BRIAN
GREENBURG (DOING BACKGROUND)
7/8/26
GOTHAM CASTING GOT ME THIS.
GOTHAM CASTING ACTUALLY GOT ME ALL MY ROLES,
(BTW, ADAM LEVINE IS A REALLY COOL GUY.)
GOTHAM USED TO BE CASTING FOR MTV
(ADVICE FOR ACTING HOPEFULS. BE ON
TIME AND NEVER MISS AN APPOINTMENT; AND CASTING WILL SEND YOU FAR (ALWAYS
REMEMBERING YOU AS DEPENDABLE (TOM))
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SHOW FOR THE GODMOTHER OF STREET WEAR (IN MY OPINION) (I DON'T KNOW IF SHE
REALLY KNOWS IT EITHER)
10/12/25 I HAVE A SELFIE WITH THE OWNER OF MANHATTAN PORTAGE ALL
THIS TIME? (I’M PRETTY SURE THAT’S HER), AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT (OWNER OF
ASIAN IN NY (YOU FIND HER ON MY INSTAGRAM, THERE IS NO IDENTIFICATION);
10/12/25 - IN MY OPINION, MANHATTAN PORTAGE Su Hwei Lin WAS THE
PREDECESSOR INSPIRATION TO VIRGIL ABLOH
MANHATTAN PORTAGE BAGS ARE GREAT
(IT WAS MY FIRST BAG, I STILL HAVE AND WILL LIKELY KEEP FOR EVER)
INDUSTRIAL MATERIALS, WITH OUT
OUTER LAYERS (LIKE FAUX LEATHER)
AND STURDY ENOUGH TO LAST A
LIFETIME
YOU KNOW, COME TO THINK ABOUT IT,
Su Hwei Lin, YOU ARE THE PREDECESSOR INSPIRATION TO VIRGIL ABLOH
(HE USED INDUSTRIAL MATERIALS TO
MAKE BELTS
(HIS FAMOUS SEATBELT BELT HE DID
WITH OFF-WHITE? LOUIE VUTTON? (I DON'T KNOW FASHION THAT WELL)
IS CLEARLY INSPIRED BY Su Hwei, NOW
THAT I THINK ABOUT IT
I DON'T KNOW FASHION, BUT THIS I
KNOW
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10/20/25 - A LOUIS VUTTON MANHATTAN
PORTAGE?
ONE WITH PRINTED CANVAS
ONE WITH THAT INUDSTRIAL MATERIAL
WITH A WHITE PU VINYL (AND THE LOGO PATTERN PRINTED ON)
10/20/25 - YOU CAN HAVE THAT SU!
(IF YOU GUYS WORK THAT OUT! THAT WOULD BE SO COOL)
CHECK OUT MY LOUIE VUTTON MANHATTAN
PORTAGE
(STREETWEAR FIRE!)
11/30/25 –
...Yo, i just realized that's a clothing industry paradox
a bag company working on another
bag company's bag
THE NAME LOUIS VUTTON HAS BECOME SO
MUCH MORE THEN BAGS THOUGH (IT'S BEEN USED ON EVERYTHING (JACKETS, CAPS))
IT'S EASY TO FORGET
IF YOU JUST LOOK AT IT FROM THE
STREETWEAR ANGLE
HOW EVER THE CONCEPT DOES OPEN UP
MANHATTAN PORTAGE TO DOING CROSS BRANDING WITH OTHER DESIGNER LABELS
AND DOES GIVE LOUIS VUTTON AN
EXAMPLE OF HOW FAR THEIR BRAND NAME HAS GROWN (FROM JUST BAGGAGE)
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IT, MANHATTAN PORTAGE WAS / IS KNOWN FOR DELIVERY BOY FUNCTIONALITY. PACKAGE
RUNNERS IN MANHATTAN = THE STREET WEAR WORKING DEMOGRAPHIC
10/12/25 - I JUST REALIZED (JUST
LOOKED IT UP), I HAVE A SELFIE WITH THE OWNER OF MANHATTAN PORTAGE? ALL THIS
TIME, AND I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IT (OWNER OF ASIAN IN NY;
(I THOUGHT SHE WAS THE OWNER OF A
PR COMPANY (YOU KNOW THE PEOPLE HIRED TO PUT TOGETHER THESE KIND OF EVENTS), I
DIDN'T KNOW SHE WAS THE OWNER OF MANHATTAN PORTAGE (ATLEAST I THINK IT’S HER)
I DON'T EVEN RECALL HER BRAND BEING
IN HER OWN SHOW
1/21/26 – ACTUALLY, I THINK HER BAGS WERE THE FIRST LINE TO WALK OUT, AND I
FORGOT)
ONE OF MY BIGGEST SHOWS I WORKED ON
OUTSIDE OF CORPORATE SPONSORSHIP (AND I REALLY ONLY WORKED ON A COUPLE OF
SHOWS)
I'M JUST A NOBODY. THAT'S THE WAY I
AM, OR ATLEAST I ALWAYS THOUGHT (USED TO THINK) OF MYSELF
I WORKED AT ELR THE SAME WAY TOO
(SHE KNOWS IT. TOM, THE JUST NOBODY, WHO'S JUST FINE BEING A NOBODY AND BEING
FRIENDS (SHE THINKS OF ME LIKE EVERYBODY, (OH) IT'S JUST TOM,
I WORKED AT FORD THE SAME WAY
I'M JUST NOBODY
I STAND (ALONE) OUTSIDE THE FRONT
OF MY APARTMENT
I MAKE FRIENDS WITH THE LOCAL
CONVENIENCE STORE GUYS
AND THAT'S JUST THE WAY I AM / WAS
I'M STILL FRIENDS WITH THE LOCAL
CONVENIENCE STORE GUYS
BECAUSE THEY'RE COOL
AND THEY'RE FUN
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ORIGN OF STREET WEAR (? IS IT REALLY A QUESTION?)
I HAVE TO TAKE IT BACK, SUE.
JEAN LUC BESSON = THE ORIGINAL
STREET WEAR DESIGNER.
SHOWING OFF FASHION MODEL, MILA
JOVOVICH
WITH A SEAT BELT COVERD BODY SUIT.
IT WAS AWESOME
THE FIFTH ELEMENT (WITH THIS CRAZY
HOT ORANGE HAIR)
YOU SHOULD MODEL STREET WEAR MILA.
YOU HAVE THE CREDENTIALS
AND SHE HAD THE ALIEN LOOK
SHE WAS SO HOT, SHE WAS FROM OUTER
SPACE!
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I DON'T KNOW WHY IT NEVER REGISTERS
WITH ME. ALL THE MODELS I TOOK PHOTOS OF ARE SUPER MODELS
ALL I THINK, IS THEY WERE PEOPLE
WHO WERE NICE TO ME
(I TOTALLY FORGET
THEY'RE ALL SUPER MODELS)
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(there are still missed connections in high fashion. (I get it.. being a
Professional of Beauty is complicated))
MODEL MATH - THERE ARE (GUESTIMATE)
100 SHOWS HAPPENING DURING NEW YORK FASHION WEEK X 30 MODELS PER SHOW = 3,000
MODELS WALKING FASHION WEEK (SOME REPEATS, OBVIOUSLY)
(NO DIRECTORY - NO SEARCHABLE
DATABASE (AND DESIGNERS (OR EVEN FELLOW MODELS) DON’T USUALLY POST MODEL NAMES.
= Did you find my name? = No
(I might have even found your photo again, but still not your name.)
(“ARTIFICIAL INTELLIGENCE” “FACIAL
RECOGNITION” “INTERNET SCOURING” SOFTWARE
this is what I do when I go name hunting)
(maybe google images search has gotten better at this. I haven’t tried in a
while.)
C’est la vie…
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5/7/26
REALITY.
IF I WANTED TO FIND OUT WHO YOU
WERE, THESE ARE MY REAL WORLD OPTIONS:
1. I COULD $ HIRE $ SOME ONE TO
SEARCH / FIND OUT YOUR CALL TAG
(asking them to be “artificial intelligence” “facial recognition” “internet
scouring” software, if they don't know your name either;
2. I COULD ENDLESSLY SEARCH AROUND
MYSELF (BUT I'M SO BUSY)
3. I COULD BOTHER IMPORTANT PEOPLE
I KNOW = No…
4. I COULD ...C’est
la vie…
= 4. I COULD ...C’est
la vie…
(‘He took my photo, he’ll find out who I am.’ = No …I actually won’t.)
just being honest…
(p.s. I know I should be more up to
date with the Fashion Fastlane. My fault.)
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IS AN OUT OF TOWNER, THEY'RE IN A RELATIONSHIP (YOU KNOW, ONLY HERE FOR FASHION
WEEK)
BE WISE YOUNG NYFW FASHION
PROFESSIONALS, DON'T FALL IN LOVE WITH TOURISTS (THEY'RE REALLY HERE ON WHAT IS
AKIN TO AN EXTENDED WORK TRIP
FOR SOME SINGLE ONES, AN EXTENDED
VACATION.
YOU COULD MESS YOU’RE LIFE AND
CAREER UP, FALLING IN LOVE; …WITH TOURISTS
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NYFW AT NYFW
I DOUBT MOST PEOPLE WILL REALIZE
TheNFLYC IS JUST MY START UP TRAINING TO
ATTEMPT BEING A BETTER PHOTOGRAPHER
I WAS LITTERALLY PRACTICING AS AN
INEXPERIENCED AMATEUR ON THE JOB
(WHILE PUTTING TOGETHER A FUN
PUBLICITY (GENERATING) STUNT)
...WHICH RESULTED WITH ME AT THE
HIGHEST LEVEL NEW YORK FASHION WEEK SHOWS
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5/24/26 -
(IN REALITY, I GAVE AWAY 10’S OF THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS IN VERY EXPENSIVE HIGH
FASHION PHOTOGRAPHY (FOR FREE)
(SOMETIMES BARTERING IN EXCHANGE FOR FREE EXPENSIVE-ADMISSSIONS TO SHOWS,
OR SOME MODEL TIME FOR MY BRAND’S PHOTOS
= IT DIDN’T COST ME A THING (AND I BELIEVE IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH WHILE))
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...I BET I LOOK TOTALLY CONVINCING
THAT I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING
BUT I DIDN'T
IT'S BEST SUMMED UP WITH A
CONVERSATION
I WAS HAVING WITH A NYFW SHOW
BEAUTICIAN
SHE WAS LIKE, YEAH, I REMEMBER WHEN
I USED TO DO STUFF FOR FREE TOO ...AND NOW I'M HERE “
(SUPER COOL ROCHE MCCAMMON KNOWS.
SHE’S TECHNICALLY A SUPER MODEL TOO. (WE WORKED 4 OF THE SAME SHOW))
THAT'S WHY I CONSIDER EVERYONE I'VE
WORKED WITH AS MY FRIENDS
BECAUSE, WITH OUT THEIR GENEROSITY
I WOULDN'T HAVE HAD THE EXPOSURE
(SECRETLY TRAINING OPPORTUNITY)
TO BE AS GOOD A PHOTOGRAPHER AS I
AM TODAY
YOU HAVE TO EXPERIMENT WITH OTHER
LENSES AND CAMERA BODIES
I JUST ENDED UP DOING IT WITH SUPER
MODELS...
(fortunately, ...my early stuff
looks just as good as my late stuff
which is probably why no one
thought anything of it)
NEARLY MY WHOLE ENTIRE PHOTOGRAPHIC
HISTORY
IS TheNFLYC
(…OH YEAH, I GOT PUBLISHED AS AN
AMATEUR TOO …ON THE HUFF POST! (OMG…))
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$400+ TO START BEING A FASHION
PHOTOGRAPHER (THAT ENDED UP AT NYFW)
= $250 USED CANNON T2i CAMERA
+ $50 USED PRIME LENS
+ $100 EVENTBRITE NYFLF WG EMPIRE
EVENT
+ TheNFLYC.COM DOMAIN REGISTRATION
AND HOSTING
= THE COST OF STARTING OUT AS A
NYFW PHOTOGRAPHER
I DECIDED I WANTED TO HAVE MY OWN
CLOTHING LABEL (IT WAS A DREAM OF MINE SINCE I WAS A TEEN TO HAVE A GRAPHIC TEE
COMPANY)
I REALIZED I LIKE THE NAME N-FLY-C
LIKE NYC BECAUSE I LOVED COMING TO NEW YORK UNTIL I EVENTUALLY WENT TO COLLEGE
HERE MYSELF
AFTER FINALLY MAKING A LIMITED RUN
OF SHIRTS, I NEEDED PHOTOS.
I DEBATED HIRING SOMEONE TO TAKE
PHOTOS (WHICH WOULD COST ME POSSIBLY HUNDREDS / THOUSANDS);
AND I DECIDED, I'M A SMART GUY WITH
A GOOD EYE (I'LL JUST BUY MY OWN CAMERA)
(AFTER WEEKS AND WEEKS OF RESEARCH
AND YOUTUBE TUTORIALS,
I FINALLY SETTLED ON THE CANNON 50
MM PRIME LENS.
THE KIT LENS WAS JUST NOT CUTTING
IT FOR ME - I WAS LOOKING FOR HIGH FASHION (I WORKED IN FASHION BEFORE YOU
KNOW))
MY FRIST MODEL WAS LELA HAZARY. I
FOUND HER ON CRAIGSLIST, AND SHE WAS A WONDERFUL FIRST MODEL.
(PATIENT, KIND AND ENDLESSLY
CREATIVE (AND GORGEOUS). (I BELIEVE SHE USED TO MODEL ED HARDY)
AFTER, I MADE FRIENDS WITH SOME
START UP DESIGNERS AT AN ANJE POP UP SHOP, I RENTED A SPOT FROM.
THEY WORKED AT THE 40/40 CLUB, AND
INVITED ME TO THEIR FASHION SHOW.
TECHNICALLY THIS WAS MY FIRST
FASHION SHOW.
I WENT TO EVENTBRITE AND FOUND AN
IMPOSSIBLY GREAT EVENT FOR LIKE A $100
- NYFLF WG EMPIRE EVENT (THERE WERE
VOGUE MODELS ...AT ONE WORLD TRADE TOWER)
I THINK THE OWNER IS ALSO A MODEL
(I'M NOT SURE, I NEVER TALKED TO HER)
I GOT THE IDEA, WHY NOT USE SOCIAL
MEDIA TO DRUM UP PUBLICITY TO MY CLOTHING LABEL
I FIGURED I COULD SHOOT SUCH GOOD
WORK FOR MY CLOTHING LABEL, WHY NOT USE MY SKILL TO MAKE INSTAGRAM CONTENT
AND SO I OFFERED FREE PHOTOGAPHY,
AND THAT'S WHEN I PHOTOGRAPHED PRISCILLA SEFU
THE WHOLE STORY IS ON TheNFLYC.COM
"PRISCILLA SEFU (WESTHAVEN)
GOT BACK TO ME ABOUT FREE PHOTOGRAPHY
WESTHAVEN SENT ME MEME WASHERE
MEME WASHERE INVITED ME TO JACCI
(MAGNOLIA SILKS) (AND OUR PHOTO GOT PUBLISHED IN THE HUFF POST)
JACCI WAS CO-HOSTING WITH DANNY
NGUYENN"
AND IT CONTINUES ON
SO BASICALLY
I STARTED IN FASHION PHOTOGRAPHY
FOR AROUND $400
I HAVE SINCE UPGRADED MY EQUIPMENT,
ALL USED FROM EBAY (SO STILL FAIRLY CHEAP)
I STILL USED THE T2I 50MM COMBO TO
SHOOT HIGH FASHION (I DID IT WITH A MODEL SHOOT)
(I don't think this story is
actually that unsual)
- - -
FULL FRAME VERSUS CROP SENSOR - THE
LONG DEBATE PUT TO REST
BUT I FOUND, PORTRAIT PHOTOS HAVE A
TENDENCY TO GET BLURRED AT THE LONG SIDES
I.E. A STANDING MODEL (SHOT WTIH A
SIDEWAYS T2i + 50 MM) - EYES WERE VERY SLIGHTLY BLURRED AND FEET ARE BLURRED
(OUT OF FOCUS)
= WHY YOU SHOULD INVEST IN A
"FULL FRAME" VERSUS A "CROP SENSOR" CAMERA
(you can compensate for this by
making the subject smaller in the whole frame;
but that means all your final
images need cropping)
MY PHOTO THAT GOT PUBLISHED IN THE
HUFF POST; OF MAGNOLIA SILKS
"CATWALK TO SIDEWALK" PHOTO
WAS ACTUALLY SHOT
WITH A
$500 USED CANON 5D (NOW LIKE $150)
$50 USED 50 MM
(ALSO USED TO SHOOT THE 40/40 CLUB
FASHION SHOW)
I LOVED THE PICTURE QUALITY OF THAT
CAMERA COMBINATION, I WILL LIKELY NEVER SELL IT (EVEN THOUGH I DON'T USE IT
ANYMORE)
THAT THING'S MEGAPIXEL COUNT IS THE
LESS THEN A MODERN DAY CELL PHONE (BUT THE PHOTOS IT MAKES ARE GORGEOUS)
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BASICALLY JUST FUN TOURIST WALK ABOUTS WITH A PRO CAMERA
JUST FUN TIMES. WALKING AROUND,
EXPLORING DIFFERENT SCENIC STOPS (MY ARTIST'S EYE (THEIR ARTIST'S EYE (MODELS
ARE GOOD AT SPOTTING GOOD BACK DROP))
(LIKE TAKING A TOURIST TRIP AT A
NEW YORK LOCALE (LIKE BATTERY PARK FOR INSTANCE))
(SOME MODELS HAVE SAID, I AM ONE OF
THE BEST PHOTOGRAPHERS THEY EVER WORKED WITH.
which is still funny to me, because I still don’t think I’m a photographer…)
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MISCONCEPTION THAT ALL MODELS ARE SUPER MODELS (PRINT AND RUNWAY = TWO VERY
SEPERATE AND DISTINCT MODELING CAREERS)
THERE ARE ACTUALLY 2 FIELDS FOR
MODELS; PRINT AND RUNWAY - AND THEY'RE TOTALLY DIFFERENT REALITIES
RUNWAY MODELS - THE BODY
RUNWAY MODELS GENERALLY HAVE TO BE
TALLER AND HAVE TO BE ABLE TO WALK (LIKE NO OTHER PERSON ON EARTH IN !!!ANY
TYPE!!! OF CLOTHING (NO PRESSURE))
IN REALITY, THEY DON'T HAVE TO HAVE
THE PERFECT TRADITIONAL FACE OF FASHION, BUT THEY DO HAVE TO BE ABLE TO HANDLE
THEMSELVES PHYSICALLY PERFECTLY (FOR A GOOD MINUTE IN THE SPOTLIGHT OF THE
WORLD)
PRINT MODELS - THE FACE
ACTUALLY, TRAVEL LESS (DURING
GLOBAL FASHION WEEK) THEN RUNWAY MODELS, BECAUSE THEY CAN DO ALOT OF THEIR
SHOOTS LOCALLY (LIKE IF THEY LIVE IN NEW YORK), BUT TRAVEL MORE SPORADICALLY
THROUGH THE YEAR
BUT REALITIES ARE, RUNWAY MODELS
ARE ALL DIFFERENT HEIGHTS AND SIZES,
AND DEPENDING ON THE AVERAGE HEIGHT
OF THE RUNWAY LINE UP; THIS DECIDES IF YOU WALK FOR A SPECIFIC DESIGNER
THE SUPER MODEL IS BASICALLY, THE
MODEL WHO DOES BOTH RUNWAY AND PRINT
IN REALITY, BEING A…
RUNWAY MODEL: IS MAKING HUNDREDS OF
DOLLARS A SHOW TO DO A WALK (WHICH IS INCREDIBLE CASH)
PRINT MODEL: IS JUST SITTING AROUND
DOING A FEW HOURS OF PHOTO WORK)
SO, YOU JUST HAVE TO FIT IN TO THE
HEIGHT REQUIREMENTS TO BE A MODELING STAR
AND THE REST IS YOU BECOMING
POPULAR (AND THAT'S ALL ON YOU)
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TO THEIR 40’S AND POSSIBLY 50’S
THE MALE MODEL HAS TO LOOK LIKE A
YOUNG TO MIDDLE AGED MAN CONSISTENTLY THROUGH THEIR CAREER
MEANING THEY CAN DO CATALOGUE
SHOOTS UNTIL THEIR 40’S OR EVEN 50’S
AND THEN THE OCCASIONAL SILVER
HAIRED PHOTOSHOOT THAT CALL FOR OLDER MEN
THE FEMALE MODEL IS A SUCCESS (PARTY)
BOMB FROM TEEN TO 20’S (SOME WORK IN TO THEIR 30’S)
THEY CRESCENDO AT THEIR YOUTH'S
PEAK
LIKE CLIMBING MOUNT EVEREST, ONCE
YOU GET THERE, (REALITY IS) YOU CAN'T ACTUALLY STAY…
(THAT’S WHY I PERSONALLY ALWAYS
SUGGEST THEM TO FINISH THEIR COLLEGE DEGREES)
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TRADITIONALLY, (SOME, IF NOT) MANY
MODELS ARE AWKWARD AS TEENS; NOT KNOWING THEY WILL SOMEDAY BE THE SUBJECTS OF
THE MOST EXPENSIVEST IMAGES IN THE WORLD
TRADITIONALLY, MOST MODELS ARE
AWKWARD AS TEENS. OVERLY TALL IN HIGH SCHOOL (MIS-UNDERSTOOD (SOME EVEN
HATED)).
THEN THEY GROW UP AND BECOME WORLD FAMOUS.
IT MAKES FOR INTERESTING
PERSONALITIES IN THE INDUSTRY
THESE PERFECT LOOKING PEOPLE (YOU
WOULD THINK WOULD NOT START OUT AWKWARD)
ARE BEING PAID TO LOOK PERFECT
PROFESSIONALLY
…AND GOOD COMPANY
MODELS ARE USUALLY ALWAYS PRETTY
INTERRESTING PEOPLE
(WORKED FOR ME. I STARTED OUT AS AN
ARTIST AND THEN I WENT TO BUSINESS SCHOOL (…and then became a NYFW photographer
(after other stuff))
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EVERYBODY TALKS IN FASHION.
THE MODELS TALK TO THE MODELS
THE MODELS TALK TO DESIGNERS
THE MODELS TALK TO PHOTOGRAPHERS
THE MODELS TALK TO AGENTS
THE DESIGNERS (AND MODELS) TALK TO
PR COORDINATORS
EVERYBODY TALKS
...IN FASHION
(me personally, I stay out of the
loop; …and just shoot cool photographs)
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YOUR HEART OUT
A FASHION PHOTOGRAPHER CAN MAKE
30,000 FOR A 2 WEEK SHOOT
MY ACCOMPLISHED FINANCE FRIENDS
MADE 100,000 FIRST YEAR (FOR 100 HOUR WORK WEEKS 365 DAYS A YEAR)
I CAN MAKE YOUR ANNUAL FIRST YEAR
SALARY
IN 1 MONTH
(AS A NEW YORK FASHION WEEK LEVEL
PHOTOGRAPHER)
…NOT TO BRAG, BUT...
(hey, I’m a business school
undergraduate. This is all we talked about)
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10/19/25 – THIS IS THE LIKELY TRUTH
ABOUT EVERY FRIENDSHIP / RELATIONSHIP YOU HAVE IN LIFE
https://motivateus.com/stories/reason-season-lifetime.htm
Reason, Season and a Lifetime
By: Brian A. “Drew” Chalker
People always come into your life
for a reason, a season and a lifetime.
When you figure out which it is,
you know exactly what to do.
When someone is in your life for a
REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly.
They have come to assist you
through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you
physically, emotionally, or even spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend to
you, and they are.
They are there for a reason, you
need them to be.
Then, without any wrong doing on
your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to
bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die, Sometimes they
just walk away.
Sometimes they act up or out and
force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our
need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been
answered and it is now time to move on.
When people come into your life for
a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.
They may bring you an experience of
peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you
have never done.
They usually give you an
unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it! It is real! But, only
for a season.
And like Spring turns to Summer and
Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends.
LIFETIME, relationships teach you a
lifetime of lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid
emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person/people (anyway);, and put what you have learned to use in all
other relationships and areas in your life.
It is said that love is blind but
friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being part of my
life…..
10/19/25 – IT’S ACTUALLY SIMPLE
MATH (PROCESS OF ELIMINATION (P.O.E.)
SO FOR INSTANCE, SOME ONE YOU ONLY
MEET ONCE IS FOR A REASON.
IF SOMEONE COMES IN TO YOUR LIFE
FOR A SEASON (THEY’RE USUALLY FRIENDS, OR SOME ONE YOU DATE FOR A WHILE)
IF SOME ONE COMES IN TO YOUR LIFE FOR A
LIFETIME,
(THAT STATISTICAL LIKELIHOOD
IS TECHINICALLY THE LEAST POSSIBLE)
= WHY PEOPLE MARRY,
BECAUSE AFTER ALL THE PEOPLE YOU
MEET
FOR A REASON (ARE GONE)
FOR A SEASON (ARE GONE)
AND THERE IS USUALLY ONLY ONE
YOU WILL DETERMINANTLY ATTEMPT A
LIFE TIME
----
THE MATH EQUATION
W (ALL THE NUMBER OF PEOPLE YOU
MEET IN LIFE) - X (FOR A REASON) - Y (FOR A SEASON) = Z THE REMAINING FEW
(TRADITIONALLY ONE) YOU ATTEMPT FOR A LIFETIME
NOTE: (ASIDE FROM YOUR IMMEDIATE
FAMILY,
WHICH IN REALITY
IS STILL JUST SEASONAL
ONCE YOUR SIBLINGS MARRY;
SPENDING THEIR LIFETIME
WITH SOME ONE THEY’VE KNOWN
FOR BOTH
A REASON
AND
A SEASON
CHOOSING TO ATTEMPT A LIFETIME
THE MOVIE – “THAT AWKWARD MOMENT”
IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF THIS
THEY MEET FOR A REASON
THEY MEET FOR A SEASON
AND I WON'T GIVE AWAY THE PLOT LINE
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MONOPOLIES
THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS
"MONOPOLIES" ANYMORE; JUST "BEING THE BEST"
THE TERM "CORNER THE
MARKET" IS KIND OF ARCHAIC
THE ONLY WAY TO "CORNER A
MARKET" IS TO "BE THE BEST"
EVEN MICROSOFT O/S COMPETES WITH
APPLE O/S
AND ANDROID COMPETES WITH APPLE
IPHONE / IPAD O/S
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THE A.I. RENAISSANCE OF
DISTINGUISHING “BAD TASTE”
= THE AI RENAISSANCE OF “GOOD
TASTE”
= THE NEW ECONOMY
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HEY, YOU KNOW WHAT
GOOGLE AI REALLY IS?
WHAT GOOGLE ORIGINALLY WANTED TO
BE.
(SEARCH ENGINE INDEX = TO ANSWER
QUESTIONS WITH EASE)
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THE SECRET TO SUCCESS IN FASHION IS
“RESPECT”
= IT'S EVERYTHING (FROM YOUR FIRST DAY IN THE DOOR, TO REPEAT INVITATIONS)
I “RESPECT” YOU.
I “RESPECT” YOU (TOO).
NOW THAT'S UNDERSTOOD,
WE
CAN GO
FORWARD!
(the business of many
(never-ending) self-employed independents)
= IT'S EVERYTHING!
(FROM YOUR FIRST DAY IN THE DOOR,
TO REPEAT INVITATIONS)
If you can
GIVE!
AND!!!
RECEIVE!
“RESPECT”
(even from JUST SOME of
the BEST)
THEN YOU KNOW YOU MADE IT
(and THE REST
IS just
A MATTER OF TIME)
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3/15/26 -
FASHION GETS DISTRACTIONS FROM
BLINDING LIGHTS
3/21/26 -
A POEM FOR YOU MY SUPER MODEL
FRIEND
WHO TRAVELS AROUND THE WORLD
EVERY DAY A DIFFERENT FACE
EVERY DAY A DIFFERENT PLACE
MEETING WITH EVERY ONE
WHO LOVES YOU
AGAIN AND AGAIN
WHO HAVE MET SO MANY
IT FEELS LIKE
YOU HAVE MET THEM ALL
STANDING TALL NOT BECAUSE YOU WERE
BORN TO
BUT BECAUSE YOU LEARNED TO
THE BEST JUDGES OF CHARACTER (WITH
OUT A GAVEL)
THANK YOU
FOR BEFRIENDING ME
EVEN IF ONLY MOMENTARILY
FOR A WHOLE LIFE TIME
AND NOTHING MORE...
A NICE WORD
FOR SOME OF MY
SUPER MODEL FRIENDS
I MAY NEVER MEET AGAIN
(BEYOND OUR FEW MINUTES
TO MAKE
A GREAT PHOTO)
THANK YOU
FOR TAKING THE TIME
TO LOOK
MY
WAY
- tom
(oh who's that? ...it's just
tom...)
Cyril Hahn Feat. Kotomi - Grace
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Grace
THE FAMILY VALUES OF THE FORGIVING FASHION POLICE
(...Just Don't Make A Habit Of
It...)
The fashion police just keeping up
standards
(by NOT giving out tickets (you mean, i'm not on the
guestlist?
fashion police: why do you keep messing up? (are things wrong at home?))
THE FORGIVENESS OF A VERY REAL
HUMAN FASHION INDUSTRY
(YOU EVER SEE THE MOVIE, (ABOUT ROCKSTAR SUPERMODEL) GIA
(it's a weirder life then you can imagine)
MAYBE WHY THEY ALWAYS SAVE ME
(THEIR NECESSARY FORGIVING NATURE) (ESPECIALLY WHEN I FALL IN TO A EMPLOYMENT
SLUMP?)
(sometimes when i think about it, it makes me cry)
TRANSITION THROUGH LIFE CAREFULLY
(EVEN RETIREMENT
(In An Industry Where We Constantly See It Happening)
Cyril Hahn Feat. Kotomi – Grace
(No One Likes To See A Star ... burn
out like that)
(…I'm sure some long time industry
people, have suffered great heart break (from the loss of some friends (along
the way).
(Personally, I'm not a long time industry person …yet...)
(i always end up going in different directions))
so many mothers, fathers, brothers,
sisters ...and young stars
I like taking the occasional
model's family's photo (or amongst friends)
because sometimes, that's their real business team (courageously venturing in
to the world with them (in support of their bold young son or daughter)
((imagine) the cover of forbes, instead of the cover
of vogue
(a professional family photo that's a little keep sake (they can keep with them
forever)
(…i'm sure they have plenty of professional (work)
photos)
for some; their young child leading
the way, changing their live's forever (and even
their fondest memories in their retirement)
(the quiet little stories in the
necessary industry ...of the necessity of putting something on
(the world's necessary fashion industry (obviously forced to be in the billions
(due to the 8 billion populace of mankind (at the height of civilization!)))
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Johns
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(I’m a fashion wRapper
…upper
and that’s my broadcasted
fashion’s walt whitman
industry
report)
-
(Just my thoughts, man)
JAY-Z – The Ruler's Back Lyrics
What you about to witness is my
thoughts (Just my thoughts, man) Right or wrong. Just what I was feelin' at the time (Uh)
(I shot a Fashion Show at the 40/40
club …you know…)
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10/24/25
SOME PEOPLE KNOW ME AS THE
“BLUNTVILLE” RAPPER ON POWER 105.1. THAT WAS ME YO!
I EVEN MADE THAT BEAT YO (BOTH OF THEM)
OH YEAH, I RAPPED ON A RADIO AD FOR
LIKE 6 MONTHS
AND HANDFUL OF PEOPLE IN THE
TRI-STATE MIGHT KNOW ME AS THE “BLUNTVILLE” RAPPER ON POWER 105.1 LATE NIGHT
I RAPPED THAT COMMERCIAL AND IT
PLAYED ON AIR FOR LIKE 6 MONTHS
(My rapper friend asked me on the phone, “yo Tom,
that’s you right?”
I said, “yeah…”)
(WE ALSO HOOKED UP THE SOURCE
AWARDS WITH SAMPLES
FOR
THEIR SOURCE AWARDS NIGHT
YO)
THE NEW YORK FASHION WEEK PHOTOGRAPHER
THE N FLY C TheNFLYC CLOTHING LABEL OWNER
THAT ALSO PHOTOGRAPHS NIGHT LIFE
WHO RAPPED AN AD THAT PLAYED ON POWER 105.1 LATE NIGHT
JUST QUIETLY FINDING MY WAY THROUGH
LIFE
YO
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5/13/26 -
SERENDIPITY!
YO, DJ JAZZY JOYCE!
YOU DID A BLUNTVILLE COMMERCIAL
READ ALONG ON ONE OF MY BEATS!
(REMEMBER? IT’S BLUNTVILLE!
(…SOMETHING SOMETHING) …THE WORLD IS YOURS! (YOUR BEAT WAS THE BASSIE ONE))
AND YEARS LATER, I GAVE YOU A SHIRT
AND TOOK A SELFIE OF US
AT CHUCK COLLINS (IT WAS CHUCK
COLLINS RIGHT?)
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6/24/26
THE ART OF THE BATTLE RAP STANDOFF
YOU HAVE TO BE IT TO DO IT (OR YOU
LOSE IT WALKING OFF)
THE ART OF THE BATTLE RAP IS TO BE
FEARLESS LIKE GOD
AND TO BE FEARED AS A GOD
THIS IS WHY
RAPPERS DEFAULT
TO THE TERM RAP GOD
IN A BATTLE RAP STAND OFF
HESITATION CAN LEAVE YOU AWKWARD,
WALKING OFF …SAYING TO YOURSELF,
'WHAT WAS I THINKING?' AS YOU GO
BACK TO YOUR GAS PUMPING JOB
TO MASTER THIS ART,
TAKES ACHIEVING
A CERTAIN STATE OF PSYCHOLOGY
YET TO BE STUDIED
BEYOND AN ART
AN ANALYSIS
IF I WERE TO BE
REALLY
STUDIOUS ABOUT It
(…WITH OUT A VERNACULAR THAT'S TOO ODD)
NARCISSIST? WHY BE A NARCISSIST?
WHEN YOU CAN BE
A
RAP GOD?
apatheist tom .com
(maybe i should bring the god tom .com back?
eat a microphone… get Godzilla… And Eat New York?)
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MUSIC THEORY PERFECTION (RANGING FROM COMPOSITION TO SONG WRITING PERFECTION)
SING RAPPPING IS ACTUALLY NOT NEW.
THEY HAVE BEEN SING RAPPING SINCE THE EARLY DAYS OF JAZZ
(I'VE HEARD SING RAPPING FROM
FAMOUS SONGS THAT DATE BACK TO 60'S / 30'S (ALBEIT I CAN'T RECALL WHICH SONGS
IN PARTICULAR HAVE ACCOMPLISHED THIS))
MUSIC THEORY WISE, IT IS FLAWLESS
EXECUTION OF MUSIC THEORY PERFECTION
(albeit, the jazz style is dated,
there is nothing wrong with this in pop music)
THE SWING OF THE OFF BEAT SING RAP
DELIVERY IS PHENOMENAL. NOT ONLY IN VERSE, BUT BRIDGE AND CHORUS.
RAYE IS AN ACCOMPLISHED PERFORMER
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BEHIND MY SHORT STINT IN THE MUSIC INDUSTRY, WHY I HAVE BEATS ON SOUND CLOUD n FLYc
I HAD A HIP HOP RECORD LABEL;
WHEN I GOT OUT OF COLLEGE,
I LOVED FREESTYLING SO MUCH!!
(MY BUSINESS SCHOOL FRIENDS WOULD HEAR ME AND SAY “…YOU’RE …AMAZING!!!”)
AFTER COLLEGE,
I REALIZED I REALLY WANTED TO PERFORM
I STARTED AN INDIE HIP HOP RECORD
LABEL
(we recorded with a shure mic in our bathroom
(that’s how dumb we were (i didn’t learn about
condensers until years later))
WEST SIDE MANHATTAN
I CLOSED IT DOWN
AND I SAID
THIS INDUSTRY IS JUST NOT FOR ME!
GOTHAM CASTING USED TO SEND ME TO
MUSIC EVENTS
(I even rapped freestyle for their MTV background actors in holding;
…while MTV was experiencing technical difficulties)
I'VE MET INDUSTRY PEOPLE
RAPPING IN CIRCLES
AND AS YOU CAN SEE
I STILL LOVE RHYMING
ENDLESSLY
(i even won second place
at prestigious rap battles)
WHAT CAN YOU DO?
YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE!
AS THEY SAY,
DO YOU!
BECAUSE
ALL I KNOW HOW TO DO…
IS BE
ME
(by the way, I still don’t know how
to read (musical) notes)
everything I make with midi, I play by ear)
~
~ My WWII refugee
Korean Army Lieutenant
Father
came to this country,
GOT A MASTERS DEGREE IN CHEMICAL ENGINEERING
he quit that job,
opened his own supermarket in the hood
that sent me to business school.
…and when he retired, he got
AN ELLIS ISLAND AWARD
(AN AWARD PRESIDENT’S RECEIVE)
MY DAD’S ELLIS ISLAND AWARD
(thanks for bringing the wonder Bread home)
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12/14/25
HOLLYWOOD!
Oh Yeah! HollyWood
Shout Outs!
(I used to make websites as a door
prize to give out to actors, Lisa Gold Act Out Side The Box raffle.
Btw, you know I once had a Knicks cheerleader as a client
(or was it the Giants / Jets.
I can’t remember…
I think it was football come to think of it…
yeah, I met a knicks cheerleader (10/28/25 - I made a website for a Jets
cheerleader)
Oh My God! and I CAN'T FORGET ABOUT
–
GOTHAM CASTING!!!
OH MY GOD, THEY GOT ME ON TV SO MANY TIMES, I LOST COUNT
(I was secretly there to just give websites to actors (you meet alot of people in holding))!
10/21/25
(Hollywood, I LOVE Choreographed
Wuxia!)
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YOU CAN'T STOP EVOLUTION; TIME ALWAYS
CONTINUES PROGRESSING ON PREVIOUS KNOWLEDGES GAINED …FOREVER = MODERN MAN
(WE'VE COME FAR FROM LIVING IN CAVES)
...I LOVE NEW YORK
10/21/25 - "I Love New
York" (THE GIANT DOG WITH FLEAS)
i live in America's New York City
WHO'S ECONOMY IS SO BIG
IT RIVALS
MOST COUNTRIES
...IN A 10 MILE RADIUS!
8 MILLION PEOPLE ... IN A 10 MILE
RADIUS!!!
= WHY DO YOU THINK, DATING IS SO
HARD!
10/21/25 - NEW YORK IS LIKE A DOG
WITH FLEAS. THE DOG SCRATCHES IT'S SELF TOO HARD,
YOU FALL OFF (FROM A NEW YORKER’S
LIFE (NY'S GLOBAL ECONOMY)
(WE QUIETLY CONSIDER THEM
CASUALTIES OF...
(NEW YORKERS’ STRUGGLE FOR
SURVIVAL) ...WAR
(...oh, she moved… (all hearing the
story hoping it doesn’t happen to one of us))
(EACH (OF 8 MILLION), FIGHTING FOR
THEIR PLACE IN NEW YORK,
...WHERE 8 MILLION PEOPLE DON'T
REALLY FIT IN 10 MILES NATURALLY ...AND YET ...THEY DO)
PEOPLE COME AND GO ALL THE TIME
(SOMETIMES, DUE TO NO FAULT OF THEIR OWN)
THAT’S WHY THERE IS A COLDNESS
AMONGST ALL NEW YORKERS
(NOT LIKE SOME SUBURB OR TOWN
WHERE LIFE CONTINUES TO EASILY
EXIST, AFFORDABLY)
(Existential in your suburban home,
I’ll be fine even if I can’t afford to stay where I am
WHICH DOES NOT EXIST
IN NEW YORK
(you make it, …or your gone))
EMPIRE STATE OF MIND
“Eight million stories out there in
the naked City,
it's a pity half of y'all won't
make it”
(LIFE SOMETIMES DURING NYFW
“For foreigners, it ain't fair, they act like they forgot”)
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KITTERIDGES (THE SQUIRRELS THAT LIVE IN MY BACKYARD I CALL THE KITTERIDGES)
(I FANTASIZE STARTED OUT LIKE THE
MOVIE "COYOTE UGLY") THE (FRANK SINATRA) HOBOKEN SQUIREL
AS I WAS PUTTING TOGETHER MY
OUTDOOR STUDIO FOR PHOTOGRAPHY
A BIRD, I RECOGNIZE, FLIES DOWN
LOOKING AT THE WORK ADMIRABLY
THE NOTION, THE LOCAL WILD LIFE
APPRECIATES THE OUTERIOR LANDSCAPING DESIGN I'VE DONE
MAKES ME CONSIDER
IT'S POSSIBLY ...TRUE
(10/21/25 there are only 2 pigeons that visit my backyard (I see them all the
time).
I think I will call them The Love
Birds)
APPRECIATING THEIR AESTHETIC
HOW WILDLIFE APPRECIATES HUMANS
IS THAT TOO WEIRD?
NO...
THAT MAKES SENSE
(THE LOCAL WILDLIFE LIVES HERE FOR
THE DESIGN (LANSCAPING) AESTHETIC OF WHAT THE HUMANS HAVE DONE)
I'M A NEW YORK SQUIRREL
I LIVE HERE FOR THE AMBIENCES
(INSTEAD OF NEW JERSEY)
THE HOBOKEN SQUIRREL
LOOKING AT THE FERRY THAT CROSSES
EVERY DAY TO NEW YORK
PLOTTING HIS TRIP
TURNS AROUND
AND SAYS
I'M LEAVING DAD
I'M GOING TO NEW YORK
I'M GOING TO HOP THAT FERRY
AND SIT ON THAT BOAT FOR THE 30
MINUTE RIDE
AND I'M NEVER COMING BACK (BECAUSE
WE'RE SQUIRRELS AND DON'T HAVE GOOGLE MAPS)
SQUIRREL FATHER: NO YOU'RE NOT SON!
NOW COME BACK TO THIS TREE!
HOW THE NEW YORK SQUIRRELLS
ENDED UP IN NEW YORK
AND MOVED TO MY HOUSE IN QUEENS
I CALL THEM THE KITTEREDGES
THEY HOPPED ON THE FERRY
AND CROSSED THE RIVER
AND NEVER LOOKED BACK
NEVER MOVED BACK HOME
LEAVING FOR GOOD
IT'S A TRUE STORY
IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT
BECAUSE THAT'S HOW IT MIGHT HAVE
HAPPENED
HOW SOME OF THE SQUIRRELS IN NEW
YORK GOT HERE
(The Island Of
Manahactanienk
Manahatouh)
HITCHING A RIDE
WITH THE HUMANS ON THEIR FERRIES (BOATS)
(TO THE ISLAND
(of general inebriation)
MANHATTAN))
(you know I think I actually saw a squirrel on a ferry before;
I bet you a lot of new yorker had. Little did they know,
they were actually headed to squirrel ellis island)
(UNLESS OF COURSE
THEY'RE A NATIVE NEW YORKER
SQUIRREL
(like THE KITTERIDGES)
THAT WERE JUST BORN HERE
(WITH THIS THIS EVENT POSSIBLY
HAPPENING, SOME PLACE IN THEIR PAST FAMILY’S LINEAGE)
MAYBE THE POSSIBLY REAL STORY OF
THE KRITTERIDGES OUTSIDE MY HOME
(their family history)
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OH PEOPLE DON’T KNOW I CAN PAINT.
(I JUST HAVE SKETCHES LEFT)
(you couldn’t pay me to do this again, even if it was a lot of money. Sketches
take so much time, I like flash bulb photography)
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10/29/25 - I'M WALTER KRONKITE, "AND THAT'S THE WAY
IT IS,"
YOU KNOW, I DO HAVE A MINOR IN
JOURNALISM.
NYU'S JOURNALISM DEPARTMENT IS
WORLD CLASS! NEW YORK CITY JOURNALISM
PREPARATION (LIKE FOR THE NEW YORK TIMES AND THE NEW YORKER AND SUCH)
NYU'S BUSINESS PROGRAM IS IN
PREPARATION TO START WORKING DIRECTLY IN THE CITY OF NEW YORK (THEIR GRADUATE
FINANCE PROGRAM IS TOP 10)
I THINK I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING WITH
THIS BLOG (ATLEAST I HOPE)
STEINBECK STARTED OUT AS A
JOURNALIST.
I’M MORE A WALT WHITMAN
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THIS WHOLE PAGE IS JUST “COCKTAIL
TALK”
…ABOUT MY LIFE (hors d'oeuvres?)
(come to think about it,
I started out as a photojournalist
I took photojournalism;
we had a photo-journalism projects
(so that’s the first photography project
I had ever done.)
Interesting reflections
This fashion photographers life
started in journalism…
Steinbeck with a camera
doesn’t that sound
so Pablo Picasso?)
HISTORIC NAME DROPPING
(oh yeah! …that’s right!)
11/1/25 - OH YEAH, CELEBRITIES COME
FROM NEW YORK UNIVERSITY ALL THE TIME (WE HAVE THE TISCH PROGRAM)
I BROKE THE MOLD, NYU, THIS ONE COMES FROM STERN
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3/22/26 - YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE
SMART TO BE “RIGHT”. BUT YOU DO HAVE TO BE “RIGHT” = RAGS TO RICHES – THE
SECRET TO SUCCESS
YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE THE SMARTEST
PERSON, YOU JUST HAVE TO BE RIGHT
(SOME TIMES, THE SMARTEST PERSON IS
NOT THE SMARTEST PERSON AT ALL
NOW WITH THE INTERNET, ALL THE
ANSWERS ARE AVAILABLE TO US
WE DON'T HAVE TO QUESTION FROM OUR
IMAGINATION ANY MORE
WE JUST HAVE TO TAKE THE TIME
TO CONFIRM
AND BE A LITTLE SMARTER, LEARNING
TO BE MORE RIGHT
THAT'S ALL YOU GET IN A 70-80 YEAR
LIFE SPAN
WHAT EVER YOU CAN LEARN IN LIFE (IN
YOUR TIME YOU HAVE)
BEFORE YOU GO
-
RAGS TO RICHES
2 SCENARIOS OF BEING RIGHT OVER
BEING SMART
1. YOU PARK YOUR CAR AT THE PAID
LOT INSTEAD OF THE NO PARKING STREET SPOT
2. YOU PARK YOUR CAR AT THE NO
PARKING STREET SPOT INSTEAD OF THE PAID LOT
(YOUR SMARTS: THE STREET OFFICERS ON THIS STREET ARE USUALLY NOT AROUND,
I'M SMART ABOUT THE LOCAL POLICE DEPARTMENT)
1. THE NEXT DAY YOU DRIVE YOUR CAR
TO THE SUPER MODEL FASHION SHOW WITH ALL YOUR EQUIPMENT.
YOU GET PUBLISHED FOR YOUR WORK AND ARE SUDDENLY BUSY FOR THE REST OF THE WEEK
AS A NEW FOUND FAMOUS PERSON)
2. YOUR CAR GET'S TOWED AND STUCK
IN IMPOUND.
YOU MISS THE NEXT DAY SUPER MODEL FASHION SHOW BECAUSE YOUR PHOTOGRAPHY
EQUIPMENT WAS IN THE TRUNK.
EQUALS THE DAILY STRUGGLE WHEREVER
YOU ARE IN LIFE
LOWER INCOME
UPPER INCOME
MAKING THE "RIGHT" CHOICE
THAT ENHANCES YOUR LIFE
INSTEAD OF THE WRONG CHIOCE
(SEEMINGLY "SMART" CHOICE) THAT FAILS IT
(THIS HAPPENS ALL THE TIME, MORE OFTEN THEN YOU THINK. TRY MULTIPLYING THAT BY
8 MLLION = NEW YORK CITY)
(this happens all the time in
fashion
You have 2 options of fabrics,
1 that is cheap and looks close.
2. the other that is exactly what you want, but will push the purse way beyond
affordable.
(a can of generic corn sells 100,000 units, can of brand name corn only sells
10,000 units, at double the price = a loss)
= YOU HAVE TO MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICE
(OR YOUR SUNK (GOING BANKCRUPT), WITH A BUNCH OF FABRIC THAT COSTS TOO MUCH!
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12/30/25
LIFE, IT'S NOT WHERE YOU START FROM
IT'S HOW YOU FINISH
…THIS IS AMERICA
(646) 982-4654
(text. I don’t answer the phone)
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